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2009-10-20T13:49:00.003+08:00

BORED!

Gosh....exams are around the corner..but i have yet to study anything...haihh...how to work things right??? What have i become ever since i left high school i wonder?? Right now...i'm just wasting my time in the computer lab while waiting for my Bio lab at 2pm...someone please tell me how to motivate myself to study like how i used to when i was in school??No...actually back then i didn't really study also....aihhh....die la....this is the most rubbish post ever i guess hah hah HAH HAH ~gone crazy~

2009-10-16T02:58:00.003+08:00

INSPIRED.

You guys must be wondering what finally made me update my blog......the thing is I'm Inspired by someone's post!... So sad that it's no longer To Inspire (sggs edboarders!!) but rather i need others to inspire me....there are too many things going on in my life right now.....too much to be blogged....

I used to enjoy life....and everything that comes with it.....I like wasting time (my favourite past time, no kidding eh)...I like staring blankly into the ceiling with soothing music on the background...I like to chat on msn.....I like playing violin.....I like attending orchestra practices....I like to chat over the phone like nobody's business with my close pals.....I like to spend time with my family and friends...I like to be active...I like to get involved in projects and succeed in them...I like the feeling of achievement...I like going up on stage getting prizes....BUT

ALL of these are the things that i am no longer able to do....maybe I should add a suffix -ed to all the likes above....

Life here in UM is really crazy....or like how my friend Reuben used to say to me "madness"!!! I have tests (mid-sems) every single week from the 2nd week of this semester up till now!..I used to like tests and exams...I looked forward to them but not ever since I came here.....I got so stressed up that i no longer know how to let go and relax.....I get tensed muscles all the time....I am deprived of sleep to the extent I now have permanent dark eye circles....

And all the activities are draining off the little of energy left in me.....I changed from someone who was able to hold important posts, take pressure, committed, multi-task and yet achieve what i desired to a person I no longer knew....I became reclusive....I only want to be in my room (hostel) and do not want to take part in any activities.....I no longer have the confidence to deliver.....as a result, I quitted UM Debate training on the 2nd week here (I got into that because I won the Intercollege Orientation Debate, by luck i guess).....I then quitted Pesta Tanglung UM in my 2nd month here.......What more can i say?

I, being a person who loves to visit new places, gain new experiences didn't join the Chinese Community (CC) trip.....and didn't join most of the meetings and outings....but there are also events which I can't say NO as an answer.....For instance, the recently concluded Entrepreneurship Day.....it's part of my Basic Entrepreneurship course (yeah you read correctly, I'm doing Science...but this is Business....it's a mandatory course for all...even if you're medical student)....

and then Pesta Tanglung CC came along (last night that was).....I was the emcee....I spoke minimal mandarin for two reasons...One, the administrators disallow the usage of mandarin or somehow that's what I was told..I have got my D to write me one Chinese script actually before I was told about that...Two, I'm half a banana who of course can communicate fluently in Mandarin but hello, it's communicative mandarin and not the formal kind needed to host an event ok! I can't even read.....how do you expect me to use all the formal words....but at the end of it, someone showed displeasure by saying this to me "Wahh...ohhh now you can speak mandarin d hoh?" Sarcastic bugger.....I only got one thing to say to this bugger "You're sick and stop making yourself so low and shallow" shame on you for being supposedly a senior!

and I figured...the audience didn't know what "Let's give them another round of applause" means......wow....I'm surprised....I don't want to talk much about this anyways...but I have done my best to accomodate the VERY VERY last minute changes.....and be gone with it....

Next up on my list is two more tests next Thursday...then it's study week already....I have not studied a single bit of anything....aiks....going home on 24th.....then having my finals from 3rd nov to 17th nov......I will be off for home on the 18th....I can't wait to chill out with my secondary school pals...Guys, Good Luck in STPM o!!

I think I ought to change my blogname soon to LIFE...instead of DREAMS...because Dreams no longer exist in my life here.....*a big sigh* and off to bed~~

2009-06-25T18:16:00.002+08:00

Biohealth Science

Many people have asked me what is Biohealth Science all about actually...Everyone only knows about medicine, dentistry and pharmacy...hah hah....

This is the excerpt from UM's website :

The purpose of the interdisciplinary program is to produce graduates who have sound knowledge of biological sciences with particular reference to its application to medical and health-related fields. Biohealth Science deals with the scientific basis of health and disease in humans and is currently one of the most rapidly developing areas in biological sciences.

The B.Sc. (Biohealth Science) has been developed for very able students with strong interest and inclination towards health-related disciplines. Students have the opportunity to study fundamental biology in addition to a wide variety of biohealth subjects such as physiology, genetics, microbiology, immunology, pharmacology, biochemistry, neurobiology, histology, health care and DNA recombinant technology.

Entry into the programme is competitive. The programme receives hundreds of applications each year, but accepts only a limited number of students yearly. Selection is based on availability of places and academic merit.

This programme is a major in Biohealth Science. Upon graduation, candidates will be conferred with Bachelor of Science degree.

“It started as a random choice, but led to an enjoyable journey of knowledge. That is what Biohealth Science had offered me for the past years. It is a course which has equipped me with knowledge as well as practical experience in the forever-enchanting field of biology and life. Exposure to histology, physiology, pharmacology, biochemistry, microbiology and genetics makes Biohealth Science one of the most challenging courses.”
Former Student

I personally chose this because I really do have strong interest in medical fields...but i never wanted to be a doctor or a dentist......heh heh.....Organic Chemistry got me becoming scared of Pharmacy....which apparently is said to be harder than medicine or dentistry......

2009-06-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

Leaving for KL on 27th....

I mentioned before in another post that 19th of June is D-day!...It's the day I will know my fate....and fate is, I got into Malaysia's Top University...guess what??not the APEX university though....hah hah...it's noneother than the glorious Universiti Malaya.....

I got into the Science faculty.......majoring in Biohealth Science.....Actually yes this was the course i chosen....I chose this over Biomedical Science.....=)....and the best part, it's only a three-year degree....saves a heap lot of time eh...considering the fact that I already saved a year doing Matriculation instead of STPM....

It caught me by surprise that I got UM....I was all the while expecting to get into UKM....not like i think it's better...but more like I applied more courses from UKM than UM.....all the better that i got UM....because I have been wanting to enter....all i can say is....I am lucky!

But, nevertheless life is never perfect. or at least that's what I believe in......I will be in different universities with my D....he will enter into the dentistry faculty of UKM......the least i can say is too bad for us and too sad for us.......we will of course try our utmost best to meet.....(he will be in KL city...whereas I would be in KL-Selangor border).....but I am happy for him that he got what he wanted....although he will be happier if he got UM.......this is the test that we are both ready to take.....

Guess that's all.....I haven't packed...ouch!

2009-06-15T17:29:00.003+08:00

Braced, finally.....

I got my braces on Friday, 12th of June.....my first colours being Purple (dark) and Light purplish-blue.......3 days on, I am beginning to feel the abrasions effects....Now, I am protecting my inner lips with dental wax which is minty-flavoured.....and I still can't chew my food....

My food has been taken wholesale into my gastrointestinal tract for 3 whole days! Hopefully there won't be any digestive problems stemming from this or else it will drive me crazy....

So, below I attached the video (recorded on my handphone, NOT by professional)...so don't complain!!...haha....

2009-06-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

Conclusion of An Important Chapter

Yes, the title states it all! With the last post on trips I went on during my Matriculation days, it signifies the conclusion of an important chapter of my life. Now, I am ready to embark on a new journey that will bring me to my destiny. Up to this point of my life, everything seemed like a routine everyone goes through : growing up, entering primary school, then secondary....senior prom comes along....friends from the years all separated into different countries, states, colleges and elsewhere....then comes the final step - university.....

Come 19th of June, I will know where my destiny brings me. I leave everything to God's will on which university I would be offered....But, definitely I will be thankful if I get any of my eight choices of courses....so pray for me!....cheerio~

2009-06-15T16:32:00.004+08:00

Con't : Trips

13/02/2009 : Gua Kelam - Taman Ular Perlis - Kuala Perlis

JPP (Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar) or in another words, Students' Council's Biro Fizikal organised this trip and we, from Biro Penerangan dan Perhubungan Luar was invited along...and our trip that day was nevertheless interesting. The snakes did freak me out a bit though, otherwise it was a nice experience.

It took us quite a lot to get to that place for a picture...haha....and it's really slippery.....

This was the bus which took us to our destinations......for one of the last times....

21/02/2009 : Lye Huat Garden

No pictures for this trip as first of all, there are only animals and more animals there. For I am not an animal person, the pictures i snapped were merely for my coursework and nothing worth publishing....haha...and if you wonder why on earth did i visit the place given i am not an animal person.....it's a compulsory trip for ALL biology students in KMK.....as part of our Practical session on Biodiversity...oh, how much I hated this chapter! 100-over pages long....nope, no colourful pictures but merely the characteristics of all the different species, phylum, subphylum, class, order....bla bla.....the only part that i hated in Biology for my second semester.....hah hah...

2009-06-04T17:07:00.004+08:00

BANDING!!

yea...so hmm....sorry for all the no-updates done lately.....i will put on hold my posts on trips...but rather...post on another thing that is happening in my life......that is...to have braces fixed.....

So, today I went to the orthodontist.....to replace my fallen off separator (which i love so much because the colour is so nice....) and to be told by the nurse that i can actually fix the molar bands today....so better still.....i negogiate for an earlier appointment (i was given an appointment next week for molar banding and on the 26th for bonding- fixing everything else).......and so i was told if i fix my bands today, i can come back next friday for bonding! yay.....instead of 2 months for the first four appointments.....i am doing it in TWO WEEKS!....XD but that also means paying more within this one month....lol....

My concern is that if i get it fixed on 26th, i probably need to report for university on 27th and should complications arise, it's harder to manage.......so thank goodness she could give me an earlier appointment.....for the doc is fully booked till July.....uh-oh.....lucky me....

BUT......if you know me, I am such a food-lover that I will do anything just to savour my foods.... even with four tooths missing, I could still munch on hard foods....lol....albeit it hurts.....

It's my mom's birthday today and most of it, I am going to have a hard time during our dinner tonight...grrr....and my granny's 80th birthday dinner is this saturday...and so....again...food is going to be hard on me.....PLUS....my family luncheon (because my bro and sis-in-law are back) on Sunday.........FOOD and MORE FOOD......haihhh.....that's all i can do~

2009-05-16T13:28:00.009+08:00

Guess what??Yepp....I went to Langkawi (All-sponsored) *wink wink* But the side note is, I almost did not make it for the trip. This was because I have been looking forward to go home (back to Penang) for that weekend after being unable to make it back home for more than a month. And then, there came another bad news. My other 2 chinese gal pals pulled out of the trip at the very last minute (a day before the trip). So, D wasn't very keen on me going being the only girl with 3 other chinese guys (all of whom are my close pals actually). But, I can't resist it because it's my first time to Langkawi and since it's paid for, why not? I'm not going to bore you with my ramblings but rather, the pictures will tell u about my trip. Pictures paint a thousand words, don't they?

5 - 7/02/2009 : Langkawi

To proceed or not? >.<

That's a tired me resting by the well!

Nice decor in the restaurant we had our dinner

L-R : Khang Way, Me, Zhe Yi and Wei Xhine

Pantai Cenang during sunset...pretty...

Ain't this nice???the Oriental Village

L-R: Wei Xhine, Khang Way and Me (in the cable car)

The view from the cable car

That's it! Mountain range in view...

The suspension bridge of Gunung Mat Cincang

See the gluttony in me?...wakakaka Xp

A picture with foreign tourists (ps. the guys insisted!*roll eyes*)

The top station of the cable car stands at 710m above sea level. The view is exemplary, the air is cool and fresh. I'm sure going to make a second trip back there for the cable car. It's cool...we took two rounds of the cable car haha....coz the air was too nice....and the rest of our group were slow....

Gondola

Underwater World Langkawi

A bunch of us posing for a picture at UWL

Penguin : The signature attraction of UWL

What is a trip to UWL without a picture of a fish??hehe...I like the pokey pokey stuff....

I was scared like anything having that parrot on my shoulders, but well, luckily it didn't scratch me or pull my necklace. And, it seemed to be smiling there....=D oh ya, that was in Bird Paradise Langkawi.

It was not just simply a bird park, but it has many other animals too like peacock, monkeys, etc. And it has got beautiful rainforest setting in there, just like in this picture : a waterfall.

Four of us on board the ferry, taking the last picture before each of us dozed off except for that Khang Way who insisted on transfering all the photos from my handphone because he knew I would be too lazy to lend him my phone on any other days. Haha....very smart.....

That's it, Bye bye to Langkawi.

Ps. All pictures were taken by my handphone only. So, don't complain! ;)

More trips to come....

2009-05-13T22:52:00.003+08:00

The plus point going to matriculation will be its all-paid for free trips.....Below are photos on such events that i had the chance to enjoy that privilege! XD

13/09/2008 : Buffet dinner at Menara Berputar Alor Setar with my tutorial group, H1P2

This buffet dinner was my tutorial group's initiative of getting everybody together for a meal before separating into new groups for the new semester. There were only 5 chinese in my class, 4 girls and 1 guy...but nevertheless, they are among the nicest chinese friends i met there, especially Khang Way....Way to go, mate!

The four chinese girls, (L-R: Min Zhen, Felicia, Qi Fen & Me)

The view snapped while in the lift of the tower

Menara Berputar Alor Setar

24/09/2008 : Padang Besar - Kuala Perlis trip with H1P4

So, you must be wondering that H1P4 is not my tutorial group.....Actually this trip was not a trip marked in my schedule but rather an eleventh hour one. As this trip was organised by another good friend, Pee Terh....he asked if I would like to tag along since they still have vacant seats in the bus.....there were several others who tagged along too...just like me...haha...but so sad...my D couldn't come along as he had some silly hockey test....hah hah....

The view is so panoramic and peaceful....over at Kuala Perlis....

Another captivating view of the horizon, during sunset.

Me at Kuala Perlis

And, this was the bunch of people who tagged along for the trip!!

More to come....

2009-05-11T15:59:00.003+08:00

.Rewind.

hmm....I did Matriculation (one year programme) in Kedah Matriculation College as I have mentioned before....initially, life there was fun.....but soon enough, everything turned sour.....

I would say this is the WORST year of my 18+ years of life....I have never faced so many problems within such a short span of time in my life....Although I studied in an English school (also referred to as a Malay school, whichever it is), I have never come across any major racial discrimination issues. Ironically, I was/am good with most of secondary school teachers....and actually most (yes, most NOT all) of my matriculation lecturers.

Right there, I was not only a victim of racial discrimation (I can't disclose it here due to its sensitivity) but also i was faced by language discrimination. This is basically because most of the chinese there are chinese-educated whereas there were only less than 5 english-educated chinese there i think.....Thus, I'm considered half a banana, who can speak fluent mandarin but NOT understand their culture.

So, what i mean by 'their culture', you may wonder.....Basically, I have no idea why they have to look down on the english-educated ones....so what if you're from whatever so-called best chinese school in Penang?And there comes their selfish bit. They will just do anything in their own interest regardless of the harm implied on others. I have witnessed cases where they badmouthed the other chinese students in front of the lecturer, just to get in charge of a project. Pathetic is what i called that....

Friends, in my own perception, are people who will be there for you when you needed them and that does not mean that you OWN them! But from what i have observed and personally experienced there, this is not the case. Being there for them when they need you is one, and secondly you must always be physically present. And oh yes, having a friend who has a boyfriend/girlfriend appears to be a huge issue although the friend is still willing to be there when you're in trouble. Man, I can't accept that! Moreover, they form gangs (usually girls) and gossip their butts off on their enemies (other gangs)...So childish....

However, I would like to reinstate that NOT ALL chinese-educated students are like that....the guys usually won't go to that extent for they will fight and be friends again....

Next goes the college rules. Their rules can drive anyone up the wall. Among them, no shorts allowed to be worn on college grounds...students are not allowed to be in their rooms from 8am-4pm everyday(except weekends) regardless of whether you have/have no lessons on that day....guys and gals cannot sit one-with-one in the library....jeans are not allowed to be worn when you go for outings...no electrical appliances allowed including electric kettle and extension wires...Curfew of 7pm for outings and students can only go out from Wed and Thurs(after 4pm and be back by 7pm)....Fri and Sat (7am-7pm)....compulsory to attend shitty 'taklimats'...where they crapped most of the times...there are many more...and i don't think i will ever finish....haha....so what do you think??

Going online proved to be another trouble over there. NO wi-fi.....you can plug in your laptop in the tutorial block but msn, facebook, friendster are blocked....and same goes for the computers in the library....and they are down quite often....no idea why...and we can't enter the computer labs as we like..that's why it is a hassle to go online there, what more to blog??...no time for that.....this is just part of my life there....lol....haven't touched on parts lik hygiene, cca and academics!...

2009-05-11T15:50:00.003+08:00

M.I.A.

So...it has almost been a year now....actually....in this one year that i have been MIA....I learnt a lot, experienced a heap load, underwent multiple hurdles and last but not least, still surviving till today! haha....I'm sorry for not updating my blog as often as any other bloggers...basically because of the lack of facilities and time.....I shall try my utmost best to picture everything that had taken place in the past year....Hmm....stay tuned!=D

2008-06-06T12:22:00.008+08:00

BACK!!

So, photos!!!.....Sort of blur...taken with my handphone only...=( didn't bring along digicam...bear with me.....

Sunrise in KMK

Sunset in KMK

Friends in KMK

Chooi Ting and I, Khang Way and I

Wei Xhine, Pee Terh

Sui Cheng, Ping Wen, Ai May, Xiao Thing, Kai Ping

2008-06-03T09:22:00.002+08:00

LIVE FROM KMK!! =P

Hello everybody, very sorry for not blogging for awhile....cool...finally there's one computer that can log onto Blogspot in KMK (Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah) hehe...i'm in the Computer Lab....=) Apparently, they block all entries to blogspot, myspace, msn and all the normal glamorous websites we go to!!!....>.< but there's a good thing here regarding the Internet (FREE INTERNET) even in their cyber cafes.

Life here is great....contrary to the 'popular' belief that it sucks....Facilities wise..it's brilliant!!Had my first try at squash here...they have squash courts, tennis courts etc. and you know what, they even loan the sports equipments to you at NO COST! and mind you, Wilson racquets etc...and oh yes, bicycles...but i can't cycle...too bad...hah hah....alright I'm keeping this short...i will blog more when i return home this weekend!! CIAO~~ =D

2008-05-22T01:45:00.003+08:00

Updates.

Just an update here...I have got a place in the local Malaysian Matriculation programme...to Kedah Matriculation College, in Changloon.....Many would say this is pretty useless programme...no value at all....yep, i agree with you on that....but would like to share my point of view here....

Right from before, I didn't want to go to the Matrics...i totally despised it like how I used to despise Form 6 (still do though..) I had a cousin who completed Matrics and subsequently got into USM...and recently graduated already.....so it's natural for my family members and uncles aunties to talk me into going to Matrics...but that wasn't the thing that changed my mind.

I was thinking all this while that perhaps if i do STPM i will stand a better chance of securing an overseas scholarship later on.....compared to Matrics....but realistically...to score a cgpa of 4.0 in STPM is not an easy task.....and Matrics definitely proves to be a better option...

From another perspective, i believe most STPM students will end up in public universities also because majority won't be able to score the perfect score....and on the other hand Matrics students are reportedly guaranteed a place in the public universities already prior to completion of the programme...and if the student is able to maintain a cgpa of 4.0....he or she is able to choose the course and university he or she favours.....

And....STPM takes 1.5 years which after completion another half a year will be wasted waiting for the results.....whereas Matrics offers a 1 year programme....and to according to my preliminary calculations, it will only take 9-10 months......Another good thing about it is that it goes by semesters....and not like STPM where you cram two years worth of knowledge into one particular exam....It's not to say i'm not up to the challenge...but rather....I do not want to put myself in unneccessary pressure if i have a choice, which right now i do....

I plan to continue taking STPM tuitions....where I keep up to the STPM level of education...while sitting for the Matrics paper....this is the best thing i can do to make up for all the shortcomings in the quality/level of education provided in Matrics....just hopefully things will be smooth-sailing...I still plant a hope (a dying hope maybe) to get JPA.....but for now....this is my best choice, best bet.....and I guess im satisfied with it.....I believe with more effort, i will be able to keep up to the STPM standards.....

Imagine when you attend a tuition where everybody seemed like they are in a pressure cooker....you are just breezing through trying to gain as much knowledge as possible without worrying about STPM.....i guess it would just be great....

and...as I have always confessed....I really HATE Sejarah.....so Matrics once again proves to be a better choice because there are only three subjects to be taken, two sciences (either Phy or Bio stream) and Maths....NO Pengajian Am!!! WOohoo....Byebye to Perundangan, Kehakiman etc. heh heh.....

But....for the beginning.....it also means i won't have my laptop with me to Kedah....until everything settles down and after I have confirmed studying there.....I will definitely be deprived of the Internet!!!arghhhhh....

I have got to sign out now....i'm still going to school tomorrow....would like to spend my last few days in my school of five years....and with friends whom i have known for over a decade.....oh..not to be forgotten...teachers.....many of whom treat me like their friend....=)....by the way, I'm not going to withdraw from the school yet...I'm giving myself two weeks to try out in Matrics....so I will give a firm decision only after the school holidays (yay...school holidays bless me from being absent in school for two weeks!!) =D

2008-05-18T14:52:00.002+08:00

Red.Annoying.Patches. (RAP)

If any one of you happened to bump into me anywhere....even in school....will immediately notice the new 'guest', RAP!!!....where did RAP affect?? my FACE!!!!chest, back, hands....isk....

Waited for a good two hours to consult the famous skin specialist in Penang, Dr. Lim Huat Bee....and it wasn't for even five minutes of consultation......*faints*.....and according to him....this is drug allergy....and haha...joke of the day...as I explained to him about my condition he asked me "Are you a nurse??or a medical student??" *double faints*

Everybody thought it was an allergic reaction probably from dusts....because i was tested positive for that...and i have a highly elevated allergy antibodies in relative to my age (25 times higher than normal people)....

But, it turned out to be a drug allergy.....means I'm allergic to drugs belonging to the Penicillin family.....i had a 1-week antibiotic (Amoxicillin) course about two weeks ago for my ear infection...i don't normally take that particular antibiotic for any other reason because apparently it's too mild....and right after that, barely a day or two after i completed the course...RAP paid me a visit already....but little did i know it would spread to my ears (pinna), neck, FACE!! and everywhere else......so depressing....my self-esteem is at its low point now.....with RAP's face!!! =((

2008-05-12T01:21:00.003+08:00

Removed.

The previous post has been removed because JPA results were out on the 11th (it's my bad..so i thought i should just remove it)...it was a sudden decision by them...because they only posted on their website about the release date...somewhere on the 10th May afternoon....before that, they e-mailed someone and stated that it's going to be released only on the 15th....

so hmm...nope...as i expected....i once again see the word "Maaf"....numbed already....so that's it..have to keep this short....because i have to attend school tomorrow, after some half year break.....it's time to work again!!...=)....will update soon!

2008-05-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

T00-OOOmato Ears...

yeah...you read right....it's TOMATO EARS.....and that refers directly to my ears. I have no idea how or why it happened....two weeks back...i had this sort of itch over on my pinna....so obviously i succumbed to the itchiness and scratched obliviously....

I thought that probably it was just an allergic reaction which is usually a one-time thing....but little did i know..the itchiness led to an infection....and now...my left ear apparently has pus inside....yikes....and to rule out allergic reaction...i have been taking antihistamine (XYZal) and antileukotrine (singulair) quite regularly for other purposes......and the redness of my ears didn't subside..

So, one week of antibiotic....anti-inflammatory....ear drops....hopefully it will get well....i don't want to go to another doctor again and be put on another course of antibiotics....it always happened that way.....*sobs*

~HY the red-eared reindeer~

2008-05-01T16:55:00.000+08:00

Yummy....tuitty fruitty...yippiee!!XD

Actually...there are many things running across my mind now...but because of the limitation of time (I promised to do my mom a favour...so I'm stealing a bit of time since she's not around *ahems* bad i noe!)....i decided i shall post about my long-time obsession.....Don't know if I should label it as OBSSESSION...but dear close friends...should know...i am crazy over fruits...for no apparent reason...

I'm NOT obssessed over health (oh yes, everybody knows!)....no...I'm not an anorexic..so there's no need for me to substitute my meals with fruits.....and NOOO....I'm not someone who's extremely conscious with her weight....I eat like nobody's business most of the time....HAH HAH...

So...how everything started???No idea....but i really love eating fruits...i don't know why....and mind you, i don't take 2 bananas, 2 apples and 1 orange as my lunch....its POST-lunch...hah hah...right after my main meals (usually lunch) :

Combination 1 : 2 bananas, 1 red apple, 1 green apple, 1 orange
Combination 2 : 1 banana, 1 red apple, 2 green apples
Combination 3 : 1 starfruit (whole), 1 apple, 1 orange (XL)
Combination 4 : 1 banana, 1 red apple, 1 green apple, 1 orange
Combination 5 : 1 red apple, 1 green apple, 1 orange, 5 cherry tomatoes (i can't take too much of this because apparently tomatoes will worsen sinusitis)

Basically, the above mentioned combinations are those main ones that i will take (one combination at any one time).....and the sizes are usually regular ones or big....you probably won't find me eating baby apples....though they are cute....haha....

Mei Lean once called me CRAZY....for eating so much fruits..right after my lunch....hah hah...remember those days when we got home after school, bathed, lunch, online (fruits time too!) =D

and till today.....i'm still so crazy...i just finished Combination 3 a moment ago...that prompted me to post this up....now coming to think of it, i begin to wonder...if my blood glucose is high...because of all the natural sugars i took in....the last blood glucose test done in september 2006 was perfectly normal.....basically because i don't usually take sweet foods....except sweets...yes...sweets...but nowadays i take very little sweets already...don't know why.....

another funny thing would be....why does my stomach have a huge capacity for someone my size??weird huh? I assure you that i can eat as much as guys do...sometimes more....already done comparing with my fellow guy friends...*laughs* but one thing for sure...I LOVE FOOD!!!

yippiee yay yay....too happy thinking of food~~ciao~~

2008-04-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

Bosses WITH NO RESPECT for workers

I was really happy and appreciative when my previous part-time (roadshows) job's boss called me up asking if I'm interested to work for a bridal shop for the Bridal Fair at Prangin Mall on 19th and 20th (today)....so of course, i grabbed the chance....after all its RM 50 per day....why not???Just for two days.....so that's basically how everything started and i met two bosses (husband and wife) who simply have no respect for others.

When my friend (Daphne) and I wanted to go to the washroom together....i mean why not when there are 8 people working at the same time and there weren't many or at that time, ANY customers.....it's just ridiculous that the boss (husband) stopped us and questioned us "why your all must go together ah??cannot one person go then come back another go ah??" Man...I don't see anything wrong....with 8 people working....if it was like only 2 people working....it will be very unreasonable for both of us to go to the washroom together....and in comparison....the other workers (their regular staff) got to go in pairs....OH HEY PLEASE....YOUR 50 BUCKS IS NOT EVERYTHING!....

Alas, we went too...after like standing there for 3 minutes listening to him babble....rite....the next thing that happened that got me furious was...."No one is to go eat dinner....Two of you (pointing at two of the other staff) go buy for the two of them (pointing at me and Daphne)...because it's already 7pm...." What a lame excuse.....and when I retorted to that saying that why not they go buy back...then Daphne and I will go buy ours...at least we get to buy what we want to eat, no? Come on, not like he pays for our meals....so who are you to stop us from eating what we desire...and most of it...i don't know what has 7pm got to do with us eating....we are humans after all....we need food to keep us standing all day for like say 10 hours (already counted the times we got to sit which is another part of this story)....so i was thinking "Isn't it a very basic human rights that he's intruding now??"

Okay...dinner over....he told another girl and I to go peep at another booth (another bridal house's that is which had very good business)....and to peep at their photo albums....ridiculous!!and he went over to Daphne and said this "Why did just let the customer go like that....you can always snatch them back from the opposite booth...." He pays us RM50 for 11 hours work and expecting us to 'snatch' customers from other booths....which is so unethical....*sighs*

Let's go on.....whenever we sat down he would stare at us.....mannnnn....think what....we are humans with aching legs due to prolonged standing in high heels....not robots....and even robots, will run out of battery, won't it??It's very, very unreasonable coming to this stage....that both of us almost decided to walk out on them....but to hold onto my personal principle, I decided to work today anyway....since I have made my promise beforehand....

So, my legs hurt like nobody's business and after soaking in hot water, how good a pain relief it was....but this morning i woke up all groggy...and puked i did....But, I still have to go because I won't let my friend down like that...leaving her there....so I went....

But, indeed my head was spinning periodically...and my legs (in heels) hurt worse than yesterday....that made me decide to tell the boss (wife) that I wish to work half-day only today...she said "Okay...if not later you pengsan"....So...yeahhh....GREATTTT!!...and then...she said i can leave at 3pm!!YAY....

We didn't get to go buy our lunch till 2.15pm!!!Actually, both Daphne and I brought food from home...mine was in tupperware and hers in styrofoam container....but if we get a chance to go somewhere else (which happened to exist.XD) to sit, we will of course...we ain't stupid ok!...So we went to that 'somewhere' on pretext of buying food...we sat for 15 minutes before leaving....that wasn't at all over the limits....i actually timed 15 minutes....then we went to get some bubble milk tea and got back to our booth....

Then, we took out our food and eat....Holy crap....at least 3 pairs of eyes were focused on us and our food! Don't we have time-out when having our meals??How rude they were to stare at us..but obviously, it wasn't simply stares....they were 'checking' out our food...and i saw the boss (wife) tell another girl that i sort of cheated to go buy food...but ended up eating my own food from home....so even if i did cheat...SO WHAT???I have my rights of doing anything during lunch hour don't I???as long as i didn't do anything against you bugger bosses and your hopefully, soon-to-die business....and then that girl...who had been talking to me nicely, stabbing the boss (wife) in front of me.....stabbed me from behind...."Yalo...somemore put in TUPPERWARE lo"...What in the world she thinks she is doing???" I got so pissed..that i almost went in front of her and said, "Now, you FATTY behsyiok zit i very health-conscious...must take tupperware go contain my food instead of putting in plastic....coz hot hot put in plastic no good la...."zzzzz....silly bugger...but it was already 2.45pm then....i thought to myself "why do i want to make enemies...when after all...after this job..or rather...after 3pm..i swear i don't know any of them (count Daphne out in this)...." So, i went on to do my job....

and at 3.15pm....i officially walked out on them...the boss (husband) was kind of mad and pissed off when i told him it's time for me to go...and courteously i said thank you.....I was sort of happy to see him pissed....but i feel bad on the other hand that Daphne had to stay on.....and I'm wondering if they are going to talk any bad about me to my previous boss who recommended the job to me.....HAH HAH....but hopefully after all that I have done for that boss, she will know what type of worker I am....if you treat me well....i will not do anything against you.....if u treat me with no respect....just don't expect me to give you my best....that is simple isn't it?

I had not whined a word....even when i had to work till past 12am..helping them clear the roadshow things the last time i worked for her (the other boss)....in fact, i volunteered to do so....and even after i no longer work for her, I volunteered to come back and serve one particular caucasian customer....whom I served back then....and I was almost always the last person to eat dinner....and i really went all out in my job.....so guess....i'm not afraid of the useless people badmouthing me....

It had been a pretty bad weekend for me i guess...that made me decide I will not take up anymore part-time jobs other than from Channel Blue....that's it!...after all...the RM50 is not really what i'm looking at....The main reason i took up this job was to show my appreciation to the previous boss of mine for having a thought on me to the extent calling me up to see if i'm interested in this job....and also I was touched by her call early in the morning on the day when SPM results came out....so...guess that's all for now.....

2008-04-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

RanD0mitY.

This post shall be full of random items....i suddenly felt the randomness in me =) and it's going to be a post full of pictures.....to make up for the previous posts with only words in them..heh heh...

but there's something that i won't randomise here : the chronological order of the events that took place....

28/3/2008 : Bowie's birthday....

So, I specially went to Channel Blue today to celebrate her birthday with everybody there....had some kind of mini party with KFCs, US Pizzas, fiZzy drinks...etc...I followed Bowie to the KFC over at KOMTAR (since Prangin doesn't have one)....and as soon as our order was made...pOOOOffffff........it went all dark!.....imagine a KFC without lights??? and no, the electricity didn't come back at all even till we left the outlet!...the only light noticeable in the entire outlet......was..........look at the picture below!!

the chicken!!!!....focus of the entire KFC outlet!!...so I guess the generator only generates electricity to the main attraction of KFC....chicky..chicky..chicken!!!!

Few days later....

I went for cheng beng at Teluk Bahang.....climbed all the way up that hill full of graves...pssst...I was called the 'Alien' that day.....why???

HAH HAH!!! That's me! Can't recognise?? For those of you who knows I have a very troublesome nose and a pair of cranky lungs plus always-go-crazy goblet cells as well as antibodies which always...ALWAYS overreact, these explain all....hah hah...surreal?? I was down with fever on the day right after cheng beng last year....and had to see the doctor who shrieked (not really...but she did crank up a bit) "Can't you just NOT go???Finding troubles for yourself!"

ps. NO LAUGHING ALLOWED!!!!! >.<

On the way back from Teluk Bahang, i managed to capture a picture which I like a lot with my 2.0 megapixel camera phone....so forgive me for the poor qualities...all the photos taken for this post are from the same source....

serenity.tranquility.beauty.picturesque.

4 - 6/4/2008 : KL nothing-better-to-do-fun-trip XD

The only donuts outlet we have in Penang is Missy Donut...or wait, do we have Dunkin's donuts around???not too sure about that...but we never see droves n droves of people queueing up for the round, round thing some with a punctured centre and some with a centre puffed up....nicely decorated with nuts, chocolate, strawberry or even cheese....and the situation in KL is totally on the opposite....look.....

J.Co Donuts (Sunway Pyramid)....i left with two dozens of the colourful roundies....(I know it sounds a lot like 'undies' meeep ><)

if you are observant, there were three rows of queue....

Beauty of nature : Sunset (viewed from North-South Expressway)

one word...AMAZING.....

Finally....my recent new love : Starbucks' Ice Blended Chocolate Cream!!!!

Starbucks beats Coffee Bean flat on this.....sorry Coffee Bean lovers~~ blehh....

Today, 17/4/2008

Went to Starbucks at Prangin Mall with Daphne....yumms.....the taste of the chocolate melts me....perfect dose to go HIGH!!!....

2008-04-17T02:11:00.000+08:00

LIES

Why do people lie??

Dictionary.com defines it as a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth; a falsehood.

I will get particularly upset if im being lied to, who doesn't?? But, some people choose to just be ignorant about it.....but to me, it's a big thing....

Sometimes, I only choose not to upset the person who is lying, so i keep quiet about it.....but that doesn't mean i accept the lies im hearing......I want to hear the truth even if it hurts...because to know that someone is lying to me hurts me more...

Recently, I met a new friend whom i'm going to refer as X...we had great chats..weren't the I talk, X doesn't talk conversations..X questioned me a lot on the topics we randomly chatted about..were definitely two-way conversations....after awhile (3 weeks or around there)....I have completely no idea what happened....X disappeared from my msn....so i went through my chatlog with X over and over again...wondering if there was anything wrong in our conversations that caused this...but i assure u....NOTHING...everything seemed normal....

As a person who goes online everyday,especially on msn, I knew the probability for such a person to NOT on the msn at all for two weeks is near to zero....so there comes my thought about X (who had been online everyday since the first day we chatted, for the entire day, even if X was away).....so it striked me that X could have blocked me....but why??

so the story continues....

I saw updates on X's frienster profiles, uploaded photos...etc....so the reason of 'busy' that i pacified myself with earlier was again ruled out....then i took one of my friend's advice to email X...to find out the truth....i'm such of a person who just need to find out everything....and particularly, i cherish every friendship.....so i will go all out to check if anything went wrong.....

I waited.

for i think 8 days...and the reply came.....8 days is nothing because some of us do not check our emails for months....so i was fine with that.....

and X mentioned that nothing was wrong....just too busy to online.....i was happy learning that nothing was wrong....and X was just busy....I naively accepted it that way...although I knew it may not be that simple....it's natural for us humans to accept things the way we wanted it to be....

To this date, i can say i almost forgotten about X..due to all the busy scholarship stuff that i have been up to...till i decided to randomly check X's Friendster profile out....just for the fun of it...and guess what.....I saw VERY recently updated profile, shoutout etc....and X's Facebook activities were also extremely recent, like hours ago...so it didn't take long for me to wonder again, if X has been lying all this while??But, why?

I have decided not to ask X about it anymore...we stopped communicating (including emails) altogether now....it's not fair if i assume that X has been lying all this while....so i shall leave this story hanging as it is till this moment....

Back to the original topic, LIES...

Is it a neccesity or an excuse?Reflect.

2008-04-12T05:37:00.000+08:00

A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed

The title is clear...it's a famous proverb which almost every primary school kid knows...but how many of us are really a friend of such....Take just a moment and ask yourselves...

1. When was the last time you comforted someone because the person was heartbroken/sad/down?

2. When was the last time a friend of yours who was having troubles searched you up for a chat?

and most importantly, why do you think your friend looked for you though he or she still has many other friends around?

As for myself, when I'm sad, I will share my thoughts and whatever else that was bothering me. Close friends to me know this is the only mean that can make me feel better....not throwing things everywhere in the room, not slamming the door, not knocking my head against the wall! My reason? I feel much better after talking about my problem to my friend....

This post is supposed and meant to serve as a reminder to everyone....the next time a friend approaches you when he or she is in trouble, try to be as considerate as possible...and comfort, support him or her back....because this is what you need the next time you are down.....

Whatever else can come after your friend has calmed down.....like if you think you want to help your friend rationalise his or her problem....because more often than not, nobody who is down wants another person to rub salt at the wound....it hurts....not only because of the problem he or she is facing but it also hurts your friendship....

Yes, i admit this post came in after my personal experience with a friend (im sure you know who you are)..i was glad that you realised it....because honestly i was a bit worried if it will permanently damage our friendship...after all the things i said.....and also after all the things you said....well...i appreciate the openness we share...at least...now nothing is damaged....=)

So...to everybody out there....your friend in need...needs your support and comfort...and not to be forgotten, my favourite...teehee HUGHUG!!(*winks* at Raymond, Mervin and my close gal pals..you guys know this works wonders for me XDXDXD)..

Remember to be there for your friend in need ok? ;) and don't hesitate to talk things out with your friend when the need arises to avoid any misunderstandings and damages to your friendship....a good friend doesn't come falling through the sky....it came through mutual respect.....or at least this is what i think....

Think of yourself in your friend's position!

2008-04-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

JPA INTERVIEW OVERRR!!

Teehee...yeppp.....JPA interview is over and done with, officially at 3.50pm, 3rd April 2008! I don't know what to say...but would consider myself lucky. The question I got was "Name a personal achievement which you are proud of and why?"

I would say this is a very nice question because it's a personal question and not factual! I loveeee it! But then again, im not going to be over-confident about it. Probably a 50-50 chance....but hopefully i do get it.....

I had the chance to look through a list of common interview questions the night before...and this question was one of it....so its GRREAAAAT!!!..but somehow...i think i was a tad bit too nervous...thank goodness i didn't crank everything up....just abit here and there when the adrenaline finds their spot in my head! *chuckles*...

I'm too tired of all these scholarship stuff that have been boggling me down ever since SPM results were out!...So, it's time to take a short break....going to KL tomorrow and will be back on Sunday!...Cheerio to all....Take care.....

=)

2008-03-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

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2008-03-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!

So...12th March 2007....D-day!...SPM results....lol....well...finally got to sigh a relief....I was at the verge of going crazy when they made the results announcement...i told Jane..."wehh....how la..they announced 9As d....10As d.....11As abit more....still dun hav ma name la..." Jane said "aiyah..datz a gud thing!!...dun hav ur name yet means ur name behind lo...sure 12As d la..." "but...but....12As 3 peeps nia!!"....gosh...my world almost came crashing down...till i heard my name....12As!!!!!!YAY!!!!but sadly...not straight A1s....got one A2 for Biology....

But...im THANKFUL....Congratulations to those who did well!n thanks to all who took the trouble to send me messages and called me or my parents to ask about my results...Mary, Bro, Sis, Pui Moon, Kelvin (not Kelvin Lim), immediate uncles and aunties..and friends....thanks alot...=)

2008-03-03T15:18:00.000+08:00

HeH Heh! =)

YAY~ Passed driving d...waaa the long dreaded process of kursus, undang, kursus, practical 16 hours.....and now it's all history...wooohoooo.....thank goodness i made it through one test only...if not it's going to be even more dreadful....and also waste $$ Haha....

So...today...woke up at 7.20am...took a bath....then received a call from Soon Lee confirming that i will be going to the driving school by myself....but i added and told her i will go to the exam place in Bukit Minyak, Bukit Mertajam by myself also....

At Soon Lee when i arrived, there was only one candidate sitting obediently waiting for the rest to arrive or to come back (in the school's vans)....before going to BM....so i quickly got hold of my index number which was 0045....i was registered as the first candidate for Soon Lee for today's test.....but 45th of the entire test for the first session...there are 3 sessions altogether....

I called Hsia Sheen while i was almost reaching there and was told that they are all still in the driving school....*holy crap*....but who cares....i reached there and registered.....

I was the first batch to go on the road...woohooo...at 9.45am....the malay woman examiner from JPJ....was a bit nasty....she criticised me for not reversing to get out but instead wait for the car in front to move first.....well..i did not want to take the risk....it was a bit sloppy ther....then as we reached the housing estate as part of the route....she told me "Tambah LAJU!!" wth...i was driving at 20++ km/h and the big sign by the road says "Had Laju 30km/jam" grrr....so i ignored her....

She then said "depan mia lambat....potong saja la..." OMG.....how on earth can i potong when there's double line??? and worst....it was a housing estate with a school nearby! *pissed* ignored her once more....and hah hah....she had to give me a PASS for knowing the rules and not obeying her silly instructions like a donkey!!..muahhaha....

Next...up the hill i went.....perfectO!!....stopped right in the middle of the yellow thing....but what happened was.....as i let go my hand brake to descend.....my engine went dead..!!!DEAD!!!....thanks to my fast reflex....stepped on the brake pad....and pulled the handbrake...so the car didn't slide down....yay.....and my second attempt to descend was successful.....

Parking was always alright....because I believe it's very technical...follow the steps and you're sure going to be in the box....but....i didn't reverse enough when i was trying to get out....couldn't come out....so i reversed again...n yep this time safely out......

Out and out i went to 3-point-turn....I realised i didn't reverse enough again this time around....Arghhhh.....but thank god.....i managed to get out safely.......and yep....PASSED!! XD

WHat a relief!! fuuu....

2008-01-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

WOOOHOOOOOO.......has it been really THAAAAAA---TTT long???

August 7, 2006!!!!mind you, 2006!!!!Haha to start it off...Happy 2008 everyone! May we have a greater year ahead....I know it's a belated one....awww.....I finally managed to make myself blog once again...it has been long....This blog previously was one place where i had poured all my heart's contents into..especially sad and depressing ones...but now i have decided that this shall be renewed...

I shall also thank a friend who had unrelentlessly (till she gave up *chuckles*) asked me to update this blog....heh heh....that's noneother than Mei Lean!!...and then Han Lyn went "blog lar...so can know what is going on around our friends!!" So...my humble blog shall see the world again!!!YAY!...cheerio~~

Shall I make this a long, long post or shall i post a separate post?? I decided...i shall make it long.. to signify the long, long while it has been idle....

So what has been going on in my life??

Firstly...SPM ended on 30th November (accounts paper) as everybody knows....and i really, totally forgotten everything by now....

Then, I went for a short break in KL along with Yan Yee, Su Yin and Yan Mei....It was cool as we stayed at a superbly high-end condo (not sure if it's still considered a condo or a supercondo)...which was 3 minutes walk away from KLCC....we went around shopping and the funniest thing of all was we ran across KLCC mall (from its north entrance and exited through its south entrance) and then across KLCC park overseeing the fountains and enthusiastic joggers... HAH HAH...just to get to another high-end apartment with superbly tight security!We had to run because we were late for dinner!!!...>.<

The fun was short-lived like any other holidays would...and back I was in Penang....that was mid of December already....

Penang Adventist Hospital's "Voices of Hope" concert kept me busy attending orchestra practices for another few weeks till 24th December 2007 when we had the inaugural performance...

Came next was the unforgettable "spring cleaning" at home on Christmas day....iskkkk so Un-Christmassy!!!...was still a bit drowned in the Christmas and New Year mood as my parents and I went for the New World Park Christmas countdown after the concert!..

dusts...more dusts.....a lot of dusts.....friggin' loads of dusts........

dot dot dot....

Went for job-hunting the day after with Raymond in Queensbay....I decided I shall change my mind and do something fruitful instead of sitting at home and earn NO bucks....right....

"Ahhhhh....arghhhhh.........huuu.....huuu.....ahhhh...."

I groaned and groaned...

I was down with fever the next morning...higher and higher my body temperature went...Haagen-Dazs buffet that night became less and less unrealistic for me.....grrr.....before my brother and sister with their significant others indulge in the buffet, I was already on my way 'checking' into Adventist Hospital!!How sad.....but heh heh....there was something that cheered me up that night...found out that there's free wi-fi service in the hospital, right from my bed!!! YAY!...so my laptop grew some legs and crawled all the way to the hospital and on my bed!! teeheee....I spent the next few days there and finally got discharged on 3rd January 2008 with a slightly scarred right hand on the flesh supported by carpals (checked the Bio book already!) due to 30ml antibiotic jab each day for FOUR days...yeahh...i spent New Year's eve and New Year's Day in a place called...HOSPITAL! *pitiful*

I bounced back to my usual self again....and went out wif my cousin to Queensbay....job-hunting once again!...filled in a few forms....and left....pretty much a routine....onlining was the next to-do thing as soon as i got home...

9+pm...and Han Shern asked if i'm interested in a job at an optical shop in Prangin Mall, just for four days....starting the next day.....since i had nothing to do....i said..."okie....i will be there at 10am tomorrow"....I was then told "ohh...I won't be there...but don't worry...Khang Yang will be there....he's oso starting tomorrow....so I will tell him to jaga you"....HO Ho HO...

The next four days was interesting, fun-filled and thus far my happiest days in 2008!..I enjoyed the job to bits and the company of my colleagues (including KY) proved great!!...KY then turned full-time...by the time I unofficially 'applied'...was told that there was no more vacancy....but i was booked for the next two roadshows in February....with one just ended yesterday (24th Feb 2008)

Meanwhile, Ling Fen called me up on my second day at work in Channel Blue (optical shop) telling me some at that time, not-so-sure good or bad news.....her boss is offering me either a full-time or a part-time (fri, sat and sun) job at her shop, Laleli in Queensbay....Hard decision... I loved my job at Channel Blue so much that i only agreed to the part-time job at Laleli....and started on the following Friday....but that job was rather short-lived...I left after four days (Fri, Sat, Sun and the following Sat)....because I had already promised Channel Blue to work from Feb 1st-5th...

Yep...then came the pre-CNY Channel Blue roadshow in Prangin concourse...made another two new friends (new colleagues..my fellow part-timers too)....heh heh....

CNY was next.....loads and loads of fizzy drinks...chips....yummy foods......went down my "natural sewage system" HAH HAH....

On third day of CNY, went to Evergreen Laurel Hotel for buffet lunch...as a family gathering..However..only half of the entire family could make it....met Gaik Lyn there...hahaha..so coincidental!

My family and I then went down to KL that night and spent the next few days there...visited my KL aunt who didn't come back this year and went for dinners with another few families....lazy to elaborate...I guess nobody is interested in this also! lols...

Came back on that Tuesday evening....and guess what....went down to KL AGAIN on that Friday night!!pssssttt.....for housewarming party on saturday....had fun playing cards that night with my nephews and cousins.....n ATE loads....wakakakaka.....I'm a "LIVE TO EAT" person!

Back I was in Penang on Sunday evening.....then..hmmm...nothing much for that following week till Feb 21st when i went back to work at Channel Blue....Gurney Roadshow...but I stayed in the shop over in Prangin and didn't go over to Gurney....not too bad....had great times with my colleagues (Ah Wong, Bowie and Chi Cheng) in the shop....hilarious of all...."sam tim sam...har mm cha" (in cantonese, translated as..."3.15...tea time!") and all of us enjoyed a great cup of coffee + Gardenia rendam kuah campur untuk roti canai + Bread History cakes!!! HAH HAH HAH....

And....today (25th feb)....i made another "life-changing decision"......that is....

to BLOG ONCE AGAIN!!....Welcome back!.....

ps. Hopefully I won't hangat-hangat tahi ayam and stopped updating right after....=D this is the longest post ever.....*coolsome*

2006-08-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

Im Back! =)

hehe...it has been long since i last blogged....well....nothing much but i have started feeling great and happy these days, enjoying life to the bits. I no longer cry over nonsense....i no longer worry over nonsense.....i am just plain happy. I don't know what happiness means to u...but to me...is to break free from all the 'traps' that i was previously confined to....all cheers and lets smile together....=) till i update again....

2006-07-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

Do not give up....

I know this post is rather late now...but it is better to be late than never...i finally changed my mind.....at first i thought...well i will just let it be...i am no longer able to contribute my support and care for someone i treasured so much....i would say the person is one of the most important person who walked into my life and at the same time who walked out....i thought i would just let him do what he likes and do not even bother if he has given up in something.....but it actually hurts my heart whenever i hear the response "sure die d...dun care la"....from the tone...although i did not hear it in the form of sound but only see it in the form of words...i could tell he was disappointed and has told himself that he doesn't want to bother anymore...personally...i put in a lot of effort in creating a situation where hopes are in abundance.....but somehow i didn't manage to fulfil in what i wanted to do.....i started it nicely....it went on to a climax and a great fall came in after that....to me, it was then my duty to create a comfortable and supportive atmosphere but today it is just merely a hope that i put in.....i really hope you won't give up so easily in whatever you're pursuing...not only in the upcoming ye sales.....but in anything else.....i really hope that you will one day develop a firm and sensible strength within yourself....do not sway from the path....i filled in every single small details i could, but it is still not enough....and i realised i can't change you...only you yourself can create hopes for yourself.....do keep this in mind....the key is be strong and firm...at the right time for the right things....

2006-07-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Baby Buggy Bunny....

As i flipped through my file, i found my long-no-use notepad which has Baby Bugs Bunny as its motif. It sudden'y reminded me of a long lost relationship..when i was fondly called Baby Buggy Bunny....i don't know why....why everything just can't be deleted of my mind??Is it true that humans have fond memories in their long term memories that can't be deleted??How i wish....it will disappear as i wake up the next morning. It brought back so much sweet memories i used to enjoy....Someone please enlighten me....why...why until now everything just stays in place in my mind as though it just happened last night? I have not exactly described about the Kuala Kangsar trip i went....but as the bus stopped by the petrol station.....it just came in a flick.....that was the exact petrol station and the exact place where the bus i took to KL last december stopped....I remembered it was then....under the moonlight of a december midnight....when....i shall not elaborate further about that though...i was wondering why such a small thing could bring back such great memories...if i had a choice i had rather not remember all those....my heart ails....humans....are always selfish.....who can blame me for feeling so upset for losing something i treasured so much to someone.....I really wish upon the stars and the moon...that everything will disappear from my thoughts and life would start anew...i regret....life was much better before being a baby buggy bunny.....at least i knew i had a great friend who will always be there for me then....but now...it is a different story.....

2006-07-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

Failed.again

It feels like my head is cracking...not from the overloading of history facts but i don't know....i just feel so...after reading something...not books but just a mere testimonial. I closed my eyes to relax....it ended up spinnning...yes....my head went spinning....im feeling very pressured now....time after time i thought i will be alright but again time after time it failed me....time is running short.....though i admit dat time will never end but to me three months is more than enough for any miserable nonsense....but i really tried really very hard but why....why.....it still feels like i just got stabbed in my heart exactly like how i first felt...i lose control of myself....it is as if i have gone mad or perhaps a screw went out of place....i know it well enough that nobody will believe what i said about going unstable.....but u will know what i mean when you see it... It's an awful n sad sight...it's not fun holding onto my own head and struggle to calm down....no i don't need a psychiatrist or a psychologist......i just need someone to actually think and care about my feelings.....

2006-06-19T10:05:00.000+08:00

Cheer up, Hot Water Miel....hehe

This post is specially dedicated to a friend of mine.Not gonna mention who..hehe....ehh...i noticed you have been kinda depressed these few weeks....cheer up okie?? I don't want to see you so down....don't always tell me you wanna die!!You make me wanna die more only...I know i myself is not always happy too...i have no rights to tell you to be happy....but then i really hope u will one day find someone u trust to confide in...and have more confidence in yourself. Believe in yourself. Although my emotions constantly change...i do still hope to see my close friends happy....especially those that i treasure alot....i might not know what is haunting you....but remember you always have a friend in me as well as the warmest hug...*hey dun squash me k* hehe...c'mon..show me your braces.....give me a broad smile...;) take care my friend....May my Hot Water Miel taste better after this....

~Miel~

2006-06-13T19:02:00.000+08:00

Post-Holidays...

Holidays have bid us goodbye....in the start of this new term...everybody at school including the teachers are not in the pace yet...still trying to get used to the hectic school once again....Post-holidays syndrome huh??hehe well....things are better now.....i don't know why but i feel much better now...as compared to before....i no longer hold grudge in many things anymore....and little did i realised i am someone who forgets and forgives quite easily....=)....so hmm...just had the national science challenge competition this morning...the questions were of course tough...but what made it more interesting was i met some friends...some of whom i have not met since the year 2002 and another havent met since last year and another friend i have not seen for three weeks and another of whom i just partnered with for concert on sunday...Haha...I am sure there were many others of whom i didn't have the chance to see....I am always delighted when i meet my friends at competition...it gives a different kind of feeling.....eheh...alrite cut the crap bout that....let's get on...so i have been better as the school reopened....but somehow haven't got back the pace to work....i guess i still have a week more to work on that because the school currently is in kind of a mess with the whole class only had about 6 pupils....as the rest go for their aerobics and so on....i still have an allowance till next monday for me to get back on track as MSSM will officially start next monday...and all those aerobics thing will end by then....so hmm...little by little i am building up...but i would say life is rather boring.....wake up...school...tuition....homework...sleep.....maybe i have yet to discover what interests me....hope to find it soon but it is not always good though because i will be ermm...obsessed with it i believe....hehe....and ohh...regarding marks...right as i expected...just average marks....not too good.....but i am rather thankful....considering my situations n emotions then.....alright i think this is all for now....goodbye bloggiee....

2006-06-02T13:18:00.000+08:00

I HATE BETRAYALS!!

Hey, do you guys out there know what is trust??I no longer know how to trust anyone anymore....I never trusted anyone in my life....until a few years back i started trusting people....but whenever i trusted some ppl....i get betrayed in the most unexpected way...Why must you guys do that to me??What have i done to u??I vowed to myself...from now on...i will trust no one but myself...Sometimes when you think you have the greatest of friends...it is all PURE crap....There is no such thing as great friends.....I just realised i have real useless friends who pretend and fake in front of me....Stop faking guys...I have learnt my lesson now...i trusted the wrong people....

2006-06-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

Inner thoughts....

Tonight has been quite a usual night for me...nothing much...plain but yet complicated....I just browsed through the blog of the brother of a friend of mine....I found some many useful things that would put my mind to work....i was thinking hard as i read through....What do i really want??and why am i so stressed out??His blog answered all my questions....I realised that i have been expecting too much of myself, even beyond my abilities...and worse of it...i have not been putting in really that great of efforts as i previously thought....Therefore from this moment onwards, i decided i will no longer put my life on hold...but to pursue what i really want...I constantly remind myself that the tests i am going through is to make me a tougher person....a stronger being....and i will continue doing so...I will stop all the guilts that have been blinding my thoughts and to appreciate time better...Every minute has its value, although it is really minute....if you really put it to good use...and so i vowed to myself I WILL...no doubt my birthday is still months away for me to make a wish....this will however be my new aspiration....

2006-05-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

What do i want from life??

I know i sound a lot like a lost teenager..But i really am. I am very unsure of what i really want from life. I feel so lost. Coming to think of it i feel weird....how come i failed in so many stuff??This is not what i want...but why can't i do something to change this??Anyone out there, if u have any comments just drop them....I need some help...

2006-05-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

What a morning?

Hah...what a morning??this is definitely the worst morning i ever had. I was shivering...what else??MPYO audition...i was so nervous that i cranked up the songs i were to play...sighz...but what to expect?i have not been practising since three weeks ago till last night...

2006-05-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

'SICK'

Haha...i really feel sick..but not sure what exactly is the sickness....i just don't feel good or happy or err cheerful or whatsoever....why can't Mr. Problems just leave me alone for a while??but i am not sad either...i just have the feeling of hollowness...as a result to all the problems i am facing....Sometimes i wonder....am i going mad??AM I??kler...wanna sign out to bed d....tomorrow will b a big day...the second violin audition in my life!!!hehe..but believe me...i did not really practise them....*laugh out loud* Goodnite, bloggiee.

2006-05-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

Not in the mood....

I don't feel like doing anything...I just want to curl myself up in bed and hope that tomorrow never comes. This is not because i want to avoid problems but because i am unable to solve my problems and worries. I feel hopeless and useless at the same time. I lost something i treasured, i had deteriorated memory and brain power due to stress, poor health, poor results i supposed...and of course my wish to enter the music camp and MPYO is crushed....i have done everything i could to prevent these from happening but it remains the same. I FAILED!!

2006-05-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

Sighz

I am stricken by anxiety and stress. I really wanted very badly to go to the National Music Camp once again...which was fun when i went there last year...I urged my dad to go to JPN to enquire about it ever since i think...February...All the response he gave was "okok..we will go when the school holidays comes"....well...i understand he is busy. I went to orchestra tonight after having missed it for i think more than two months..i found out that this time around to enter the camp, u need to go through some auditions. Ok but what makes it worse is the audition is TOMORROW...and that also means i wont have the chance to go anymore as pre registration is required. Sighz....moments later....i found out that I will be placed before an experienced, talented, distinction in diploma holder friend of mine for my upcoming audition to enter the Malaysian Philharmonic Youth Orchestra...Not only that, i was told that the audition slot for that whole hour (each person 10minutes) have been lined up for basically all the players from PSO...which also means i will meet back people of whom i know...and they consist of many many young talented violinists. Again, thats another blow for the night...I came home a little worried and panicky. I cranked up while talking on the phone with a friend of mine and my mom (my parents were out).....I don't know what should i do to calm myself down....=s

2006-05-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

Determination

Determination?After all the ups and downs, i decided that i have no other choice but to brave the world with the word determination. I am determined to make a change to my life, not to dwell over the past anymore. But somehow i doubt if i could make it. Nobody could give me the assurance except myself...I HAVE TO....n I WILL!!Brave it, face it.

2006-05-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

Dwelling Over The Past....

Coming to these, well i think it is the right time for me to express this in my blog.

I met someone very special three years back. It was then i got to know a great friend. He was someone who would always be there for me no matter what. We have been there for each other at times of ups and downs for the past two years till last year. Something quite awesome happened late last year. It was like the start of everything. I see real beauty in my life with his presence near me. However, life is never a bed of roses. We had some misunderstandings and it really affected us very badly.Eventually, a grave decision was made and that totally changes our relationship. The relationship and friendship is ruined. The feelings of togetherness never disappeared from my thoughts. It has been two months since and i have yet to find my path, myself.This question came across my mind, "Are we still friends?" everytime his eyes meet mine. The sorrow and tears in my eyes to me, is nothing as important as the friendship. I really treasure friendships be it special or not. Deep inside i really hope he understands my feelings. All I want is to keep the friendship because to me friends are not objects which you throw when u do not like it anymore. They are the people who will walk side by side with you up and down the hills of life. They are the people who is willing to share with you their thoughts and feelings. As for me, life is nothing without friends especially those near and dear to me. The pain of losing someone nearest and dearest to me is unbearable. Every moment i tried closing my eyes, the pictures of the happiness we had flash through my mind. I feel empty and weak, just like a toddler who falls while trying to take her first step. After all this, I have experience the pain losing a beloved friend. If you happen to read this, please do not have any hard feelings. Besides, i would really want to apologise to any friends of whom i have either directly or indirectly hurt.

2006-05-25T15:49:00.000+08:00

Finally....

Finally, the exam is over!Nothing special about that but i have been waiting for this moment..hehe...no doubt the final liberation would be after my SPM, but who cares??I just feel great!Of course, I am not quite expecting any outstanding results this time around.I know i have not worked enough. And for those who do not know, SGGS has came up with a 'brilliant' idea where all students who do not get an A for their papers will be sent a letter to their parents.I am expecting a few letters though..*chuckles* hmm...I just feel great, that's all!!Not feeling great for expecting bad results but feeling great for i do not need to digest anymore facts today!And the joke for the day: While i was doing my EST paper this morning, instead of thinking and visualizing some Bio facts in my mind (Bio paper coming up)..I was actually thinking of what am i going to post later on this blog..haha and counting down the hours of exam left *laugh out loud*...But, what do you expect??i have been having to sit for the papers which in total came up to be more than 25 hours!!and for 10 continuous days!!

2006-05-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hello Everybody!!

Well, well, well......Finally i decided to create my own blog to express my thoughts and feelings as i realised it is getting harder for me to spill them out through word of mouth...Right, so how is everyone out there?? I hope you guys are doing fine.I am not denying the fact that I am not quite alright. It is sad to say that I have lost a very big part of myself and now in midst of recovering it. Not to be forgotten, i would really want to acknowledge and thank some great, really great friends who never failed to be there when I am all so drained out. Thanks to all of you :Shihong, Hangxin, William, Khye Yih, Reuben, Abigail..hehe.. ;) They made me believe that there are still hopes in life.Thanks.