Cheer up, Hot Water Miel....hehe

This post is specially dedicated to a friend of mine.Not gonna mention who..hehe....ehh...i noticed you have been kinda depressed these few weeks....cheer up okie?? I don't want to see you so down....don't always tell me you wanna die!!You make me wanna die more only...I know i myself is not always happy too...i have no rights to tell you to be happy....but then i really hope u will one day find someone u trust to confide in...and have more confidence in yourself. Believe in yourself. Although my emotions constantly change...i do still hope to see my close friends happy....especially those that i treasure alot....i might not know what is haunting you....but remember you always have a friend in me as well as the warmest hug...*hey dun squash me k* hehe...c'mon..show me your braces.....give me a broad smile...;) take care my friend....May my Hot Water Miel taste better after this....

~Miel~

Post-Holidays...

Holidays have bid us goodbye....in the start of this new term...everybody at school including the teachers are not in the pace yet...still trying to get used to the hectic school once again....Post-holidays syndrome huh??hehe well....things are better now.....i don't know why but i feel much better now...as compared to before....i no longer hold grudge in many things anymore....and little did i realised i am someone who forgets and forgives quite easily....=)....so hmm...just had the national science challenge competition this morning...the questions were of course tough...but what made it more interesting was i met some friends...some of whom i have not met since the year 2002 and another havent met since last year and another friend i have not seen for three weeks and another of whom i just partnered with for concert on sunday...Haha...I am sure there were many others of whom i didn't have the chance to see....I am always delighted when i meet my friends at competition...it gives a different kind of feeling.....eheh...alrite cut the crap bout that....let's get on...so i have been better as the school reopened....but somehow haven't got back the pace to work....i guess i still have a week more to work on that because the school currently is in kind of a mess with the whole class only had about 6 pupils....as the rest go for their aerobics and so on....i still have an allowance till next monday for me to get back on track as MSSM will officially start next monday...and all those aerobics thing will end by then....so hmm...little by little i am building up...but i would say life is rather boring.....wake up...school...tuition....homework...sleep.....maybe i have yet to discover what interests me....hope to find it soon but it is not always good though because i will be ermm...obsessed with it i believe....hehe....and ohh...regarding marks...right as i expected...just average marks....not too good.....but i am rather thankful....considering my situations n emotions then.....alright i think this is all for now....goodbye bloggiee....

I HATE BETRAYALS!!

Hey, do you guys out there know what is trust??I no longer know how to trust anyone anymore....I never trusted anyone in my life....until a few years back i started trusting people....but whenever i trusted some ppl....i get betrayed in the most unexpected way...Why must you guys do that to me??What have i done to u??I vowed to myself...from now on...i will trust no one but myself...Sometimes when you think you have the greatest of friends...it is all PURE crap....There is no such thing as great friends.....I just realised i have real useless friends who pretend and fake in front of me....Stop faking guys...I have learnt my lesson now...i trusted the wrong people....

Inner thoughts....

Tonight has been quite a usual night for me...nothing much...plain but yet complicated....I just browsed through the blog of the brother of a friend of mine....I found some many useful things that would put my mind to work....i was thinking hard as i read through....What do i really want??and why am i so stressed out??His blog answered all my questions....I realised that i have been expecting too much of myself, even beyond my abilities...and worse of it...i have not been putting in really that great of efforts as i previously thought....Therefore from this moment onwards, i decided i will no longer put my life on hold...but to pursue what i really want...I constantly remind myself that the tests i am going through is to make me a tougher person....a stronger being....and i will continue doing so...I will stop all the guilts that have been blinding my thoughts and to appreciate time better...Every minute has its value, although it is really minute....if you really put it to good use...and so i vowed to myself I WILL...no doubt my birthday is still months away for me to make a wish....this will however be my new aspiration....